Listen to: Ou Est La Swimming Pool-I Just Dance The Way I Feel.
I'm not arrogant, well I can be, but who can't?
Most people think I'm rude, or cocky, or something to that affect.
But I don't think I am, I'm just happy with who I am.
I know I'm not majorly attractive, maybe a little podgy, and to some quite repulsive, but I'm aware, and I'm comfortable.
I know I can be shy around new people, but it's the way I am.
I know I'm not overly talented at anything, but I have a lot of smaller talents, and I have my whole life to improve.
I know I'm not the most educated book on the shelf, but I can think in ways that others can't.
I'm not into myself, I'm just comfortable with who I am, and I accept where I'm going.
I have a plan, I have a purpose, I don't know what they are, but I will.
I don't know the secret to life, but I do know so many truths.
I'm not uppity, I just know who I am.
I care about you, just not what you think of me, like or love me, it's your choice.
So I suppose in a way, I Just Dance The Way I Feel.
Do you know who you are?
G x
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
I Also Feel This Way
Sometimes I can get extremely motivated and go on to accomplish great things. Other times I'll find myself sitting around the house for days listening to that ringing sound in my ears and doing absolutely nothing. Sometimes I believe that what I'm doing is going to change the world, and other times I don't think it will make a dent in my own city. I can be super positive and incredibly negative, all in the space of thirty minutes. There are days that I go into a convenience store and I look deep into the eyes of everyone around me and sincerely love them with all that I am. Other days I won't even look up at the casher.
Some days I get depressed to the point where I can barely lift my head. Other days I have a joy and peace that surpasses understanding. I get angry, insecure, hopeless, lustful,greedy, isolated, violent, vengeful and arrogant. I hate racism! However I'm a racist. I despise control freaks, yet I am one of them. I believe in love. I believe that God is love. Sometimes I still find myself hating people. I believe in encouraging people and I love to watch them succeed. Ironically at the same time I enjoy watching some people fail. I can be the most holy person I know and the wickedest person I know all at the same time.
When I look at a woman I see her heart. I also see her breasts. I can't imagine ever hurting a woman, but I've done it many times in my life. I respect women but sometimes I'm a chauvinist. I am an animal lover. I've also killed a bunch of them. The other day I stepped on a beetle in front of my house and I felt nothing in my heart as I heard the crunching sound under my tennis shoes. I think birds are beautiful and wondrous, but I laugh when one accidentally fly's into the grill of my car when I'm doing 95 on the freeway.
I break the law all the time. If no one is around, I run through stop signs, and go over the speed limit. I've even been known to tear off the label on my mattress. I'm the best parent I know and the worst. I never raise my voice to my children but I yell at them all the time. Sometimes I know they need to be held and I push them away. Other times they need time alone and I force them to be held because I am stronger. I think all children are beautiful, but there are a lot who are down right ugly.
I can be very spiritual and fathom all the deep things of God. I can also retreat to a dark fleshy place and stay there for hours. I know how to think from my heart and I am committed to being a heart person. I can also be the most heartless person I know. I gasp and mourn over starving children in other countries. I laugh at dirty jokes and sometimes make fun of people who can't help themselves. When I pray, I know He hears me and is with me. Sometimes I don't talk to him for a week straight. I believe in God. I'm an atheist. I know where I stand with God. I am more lost than I've ever been. I'm happy, sad, peaceful, disturbed, patient, angry, confident, insecure, pure, vulgar, loving, vengeful, hopeful and hopeless.
I am a Christian.
Some days I get depressed to the point where I can barely lift my head. Other days I have a joy and peace that surpasses understanding. I get angry, insecure, hopeless, lustful,greedy, isolated, violent, vengeful and arrogant. I hate racism! However I'm a racist. I despise control freaks, yet I am one of them. I believe in love. I believe that God is love. Sometimes I still find myself hating people. I believe in encouraging people and I love to watch them succeed. Ironically at the same time I enjoy watching some people fail. I can be the most holy person I know and the wickedest person I know all at the same time.
When I look at a woman I see her heart. I also see her breasts. I can't imagine ever hurting a woman, but I've done it many times in my life. I respect women but sometimes I'm a chauvinist. I am an animal lover. I've also killed a bunch of them. The other day I stepped on a beetle in front of my house and I felt nothing in my heart as I heard the crunching sound under my tennis shoes. I think birds are beautiful and wondrous, but I laugh when one accidentally fly's into the grill of my car when I'm doing 95 on the freeway.
I break the law all the time. If no one is around, I run through stop signs, and go over the speed limit. I've even been known to tear off the label on my mattress. I'm the best parent I know and the worst. I never raise my voice to my children but I yell at them all the time. Sometimes I know they need to be held and I push them away. Other times they need time alone and I force them to be held because I am stronger. I think all children are beautiful, but there are a lot who are down right ugly.
I can be very spiritual and fathom all the deep things of God. I can also retreat to a dark fleshy place and stay there for hours. I know how to think from my heart and I am committed to being a heart person. I can also be the most heartless person I know. I gasp and mourn over starving children in other countries. I laugh at dirty jokes and sometimes make fun of people who can't help themselves. When I pray, I know He hears me and is with me. Sometimes I don't talk to him for a week straight. I believe in God. I'm an atheist. I know where I stand with God. I am more lost than I've ever been. I'm happy, sad, peaceful, disturbed, patient, angry, confident, insecure, pure, vulgar, loving, vengeful, hopeful and hopeless.
I am a Christian.
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